Breaking Free from the Pressure Cooker

You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.
"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."
Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.Her sign is the eclipsed moon.
As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
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Ako? Vampire? Hmm... Ewan ko lang ha...

Kombulsyon

Ika-dalawampu’t walo ng Mayo. Tanghaling tapat. Nilalagnat ang siyudad. Walang gamot na umeepekto, at wala ring pambili ng mas mamahalin pang gamot. Ilang mga kamay ang naglalagay ng malamig na tuwalya sa noo. Pansumaglit na bababa ang lagnat, ngunit magbabalik ding muli. Sumubok ang ibang balutin ng kumot ang buong katawan upang magpawis at gumaling. Pawis? Oo. Pagbaba ng lagnat? Hindi.

Wala na nga yatang pag-asa pang gumaling sa pagkakalagnat ang siyudad. Tumitirik na ang kanyang mga mata. Kinokombulsyon, nagngangalit ang mga ngipin. Napaka-init ng kanyang balat. Nakakapaso.

Apatnapu’t dalawang antas ng sentigrado sa labas. Disyerto. Pakibuhusan naman ng yelo ang Dubai. Para nyo nang awa.

My Child of Words

13/05/05
I need help. Badly. I'm being attacked by my demons. I'm too frail to fight back. Save me, save me please...

But nobody came to save me. I have nobody.

21/05/05
This is the worst mistake of my life. No more erasures, no more turning back. My life is being turned upside down with your arrival. You're killing me, my dreams, my goals, and whatever else is left of my broken soul. I'm breaking down. How will I be loved now that you're here? All will be lost, and "he"... how will "he" find me now if you're there covering me and taking me beneath your shadows?

22/05/05
I can feel you circulating in my innermost being. Your life being tied to mine. My little body providing sustenance for your little soul. But you're here now, so what choice do I have? Should I let you go and ruin myself and dread every moment of it or should I hold on to you and ruin myself and my dreams and dread every moment of it anyway? I'm not ready for you, and I can't promise you anything. I'd only be hurting you, and I don't want to do that. I don't want to pass on to you the burdens I'm carrying. It's a nightmare coming to life, and I never thought I'd be in this. I'm sorry but I would have to let you go...

24/05/05
Warm blood escaping my being. You're leaving me behind. I should be happy, right? I should celebrate. No more blockade along my path.

But then again, somehow, I can't smile. Somehow, I feel like I'm losing a very big part of myself. I think, I think I want you too. Too bad, I already lost you and I can't make you come back anymore.

I'm sorry, I know I shouldn't have let you go.