Way Below the Poverty Line

I'm sooooo poor. It's the main reason why I haven't logged on for a long time now. I can't afford the 3 dh/hr internet rate. I only had 1 dh in my wallet for the past week kaya nag-stagnate din ang jobhunt ko. I can't afford to buy newspaper to search for ads, i can't even afford the fare for schedule interviews. I was actually attending a training for a sales position but I was only able to attend for 2 days out of the one week training. I ran out of money for fare. I was eating 1 meal a day. Minsan I'd do favors for my flatmates like ironing out their clothes or accompanying them to the far-out market and that would earn me a meal. grabe na-test talaga ang faith ko! I wanted to fast kasi nga wala naman akong food but then I realized that that wouldn't be valid because I wouldn't be sacrificing anything at all. My time was divided into bible reading, crying and sleeping (to stave off hunger). Last Thursday ang sobrang peak of frustration ko. I didn't eat anything the whole day. and I was actually worrying where to get the 1.50 bus fare for church the next day. And then I remembered I still have some php in my wallet. I exchanged it to dirhams and I got less than 5 dh out of it. I went to church the next day without breakfast. I was really hungry and I can hardly concentrate sa sinasabi ni Pastor Roel. All I can remember is this line "You can't say you love God unless you love the person sitting right next to you." I actually thought, "well then, I could actually shout that I Love God. Pastor Roel doesn't have any idea how much I love the person sitting right next to me!" Haha... So anyway, I went to Josh's flat afterwards para makikain ng brunch at 1 in the afternoon. After we ate, nag-invite yung tita nya to eat at this eat-all-you-can mexican bar! Yebah! I was quite full na pero I ate pa rin! Pag-uwi ko I was faced with the same dilemma, no money, no food. Josh is really quite a blessing. He had no cash din so he dragged me to the nearest supermarket to buy me food stock using his almost maxed out credit card. so for the next 2 weeks, i'd be eating chicken franks. yun kasi ang mura. naulaw gyud ko kay josh! so anyway, here i am, using josh's laptop, e-mailing my cvs. i am jobless and penniless in dubai. but faithless? no way!!!

anyway, josh and i are supposed to have our singing career here in dubai! hehe... we're going to sing with some up alumni sa philippine pavillion for the 10th dubai shopping festival (www.mydsf.ae) dapat thurdays and fridays yun but hindi pa kami nakapunta ni josh kasi 1) the place is malayo and wala kaming pamasahe; and 2) di pa kami kino-contact kung kailan ba talaga ang start.

Please please pray for finances for me. I need money to extend my visa for another month and to pay for the bedspace and for other expenses. I don't want to ask my mom na kasi nahihiya na ako and my dad is quite impossible. So eto na muna for. I have to e-mail my cvs pa. Ciao!