Sentimental License

Sigh.. I miss my UPCYM friends... Havent seen you guys for almost a year now! I barely even see my housemates... Sigh...
Been listening to Paramita's first album, Tala, and this song just reminds me of you guys... Hope to see you guys real soon! UP Fair! Hehe...

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hey, i thought of you today
i thought that i should tell you
how much i miss you
remember what you used to say
"friends forever, i hope that we'll remain this way.. oh.."

all this time, i've been thinkin' bout the way we used to play
you're everywhere i go i can't escape you,
when i close my eyes i see you
even in my sleep i think of you..
oh.. i miss you..

can we put the blame on the changing times?
where have all the years gone by?
so fast, so young,
so sure that this will never end
i'll always stand by you, my friend
but forever was just too long..

LOST... memories and colors of shattered hearts...

I would like to think that what we have is something special. But for all I know, all of this might just be a game to you. And who knows how many girls you've played this game with, and how may girls you will play this game with after me. I want you, and I don't want to lose you. But I know that somehow I have to let you go, the soonest time possible. I can't let my world go around you and this false sense of belonging. I can't have you, that much I know of. But then again, why do I go around, pretending as if I own you and you own me? I want you, but you never care, never give a damn. I can't live like this. I'd only end up hurting myself and the people around me. But just give me one reason to stay here, and I'd turn right back around....

song of the girl in the boat

the breathless whisper of a single verse,
and loneliness blossoms in my heart;
the shimmer of a single dream
and my world is undone.
the memory of a single tenderness
and the sting of love reignites my wounds ;
in the moment when a single tear falls,
all hatred becomes a distant blur.
i can love you with all that i am,
but even this cannot return you to me.
from now on i will live as a shadow
forever in the past
forever in the past...

-----------the banquet

bidding adieu

I'm so tired. I've never been this tired before.. ever... I'm tired of my job... of talking... of waiting... of being at my best.. of failing... of dreaming.. of hoping... of crying... of singing.. of dancing...

I've lost my will to get up in the evening and get out of the house to go to work... and God forbid.. I'm starting to lose even my will to go to sleep in the morning...

Nothing makes sense to me anymore... Everything is a sham... I'm becoming more of a failure with each day that passes...I need a rest...Please take me home...

...tears and rain... (james blunt)

How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.